I HAVE MADE MY MIND!!

now i have made my mind..i am not gonna hope on blush anymore caz now i understand that he didnt had love for me..he was just attracted to my looks..after meeting me everything has changed,caz i look different in person..he was attracted to my pictures on facebook... he use 2 tell me that he miss my voice..now it has been 3-4days already..he never told me anything like that..i hurts...ALOT...really ALOT.. god..why is this happening to me??are you letting me 2 feel the pain??i hate it alot...i wanna fall in love..i want someone to pamper me..i want someone to hug me,kiss me,feel me...dont think i am GATAL kay..its just my hormones are working fast...whats wrong with it??im a human..i would feel the same like the others too..u cant say im too young for it or dont tell me some GRANMA stories..i know im not gonna get him,its k..he isnt luck 2 have me..thats all i can say...