no more doubts...

 my sister made me realize that karam isnt the one for me..if he really loved me,he wouldnt ignore me after seeing me..i would wanna b with a guy who can patiently wait just to see me and willing to accept me for who i am..to me love dosent come by looks..looks is just secondary..caz if ur goin for her/his looks one day u mite leave him bcaz his not attractive..so nvr go for looks..i thought karam's love was true,turns out it isnt..he only had lust on me..*sigh*
the only thing that i pray 2 god is i wanna be with a guy who can love me for who i am...a guy who can keep me happy forever...a guy who has d same attitude like mine..i dont mind waiting for that guy for the rest of my life.. :)

feel good and felt bad!!!!

NOEL.... my tony boy...hehehehe...each time i call him i never fail to laugh...OMYGOSSSHH..he always have something to say...there is no a day i felt bored talking to him..some how he makes d conversation interesting....i like him for the way he is..

lets leave this a side...no m dead pissed with KARAMJEET SINGH!!

                              
WTF did i do to him...i stil dnt get it..he said i changed him..i mean,dont worie not in a good way...its way around..i do like him until last nite,but last nite i told myself to stop liking him caz i feel like im a DOG bhind him,nd he dosent even wanna bother me.... enough..i dont wanna go soo cheap...if he cant appreciate me for who i am,i couldnt care less..as far as i know...errrmm...im not 'perasaning' or self obsessed..i think i look a lil better thn hez EX...maybe she'z way slimmer thn me...yea..tats true...she is slim and tall..FINEEE..

now i knw y he rejected me..i thought love comes 4rm d heart..not looks??

ppls thesedays...*sigh*

i thought he loved me for who i am,but turns out he loved me for who im nt..i mean i dont

look the same if u she my pix...ofcaz i do edit my pix..i guess he fell 4 my pix..not me..

he totally ignored me after seeing me..and now putting the blame on me by sayin that i changed him...

OH PUH-LEZZZZZZZZZZz...if u dont like me,u can saying right on my face..im not

that kinda gal who sits and cry over compliments...that is soo not me yahh..

there will be 1 day u'll feel wut i felt...I PROMISE U THAT!!!!! *peace up*

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPYYYY!!!! I AM SOO HAPPYYYYY!!

3.17am...out of sudden i woke up...checkd my phone..2 misscalls from noel..i was like WTH!!!he called me...??i was effing excited..caz it has been ages since he called me..the worst part is i was sleeping with my mum...i soo wanted 2 talk 2 him too..so i misscalled back..he called me..it was 3.20am..i answered..without saying hellow he started 2 sing..gooooooooooooshhhhh....after soo long..i was just listening without saying a word..we spoke only 4 5mins..he told he'll call me back..the minute i hang up d phone,i heard a voice callin my name...F***,it was my mum...she was asking who m i talking to..i kept quiet..nvr open my mouth..she opened my comforter.. she woke me up nd asked me who m i talking to..i just look at her nd gave her a look like 'mum wat r u crapping'??

LMAO..im pretty good at acting...I AM A DRAMA QUEEN U KNW..ahahhahaha..i was hopping that she would ask me in d morning when i wake up...thank god until now she didnt even ask a word..then at 4.10pm he called me again..eheheheh...excited again..nd again..i remember d conversation we had:

me:looks like some1 is calling me now...not bad..

noel:owh yah,i just reloaded my phone,so thought of calling you..

me:waahh...okay..

noel:hmm...nt be 'perasan' kay..i didnt called you d 1st...

me:so wut,atleast u called me right..btw who u called 1st??

noel:errmm..my mum..

me:2nd?

noel:err..you la..who else..

me:awwww..atleast im d 2nd 1...ehehehe..till then im happie..

i was flying in the air...i love talking to him..i dont mind talking to him the wholeday..but im prayin hard 2 god to change him..he drinks alot..which is not good 4 his health..hopefully god answers my prayer..aite...ADIOZ AMIGO!!!

I HAVE MADE MY MIND!!

now i have made my mind..i am not gonna hope on blush anymore caz now i understand that he didnt had love for me..he was just attracted to my looks..after meeting me everything has changed,caz i look different in person..he was attracted to my pictures on facebook... he use 2 tell me that he miss my voice..now it has been 3-4days already..he never told me anything like that..i hurts...ALOT...really ALOT.. god..why is this happening to me??are you letting me 2 feel the pain??i hate it alot...i wanna fall in love..i want someone to pamper me..i want someone to hug me,kiss me,feel me...dont think i am GATAL kay..its just my hormones are working fast...whats wrong with it??im a human..i would feel the same like the others too..u cant say im too young for it or dont tell me some GRANMA stories..i know im not gonna get him,its k..he isnt luck 2 have me..thats all i can say...

KARMA... WHAT GOES AROUND,COMES AROUND!!

i am fucking sad rite now!!! i guess its karma.. i was only taking you as my friend,but u took my as a girl friend..but now i wanna take u as a boyfriend,ur taking me a friend...everything changed after our meet...dipsy said its too soon 2 meet yah,but i didnt felt so caz somehow your gonna still see me..my face..everything..nothin in me is gonna change..that fosho!! i thought u would like me for who m i...but turns out u startd to ignore me for who m i..now those words are coming back 2 me..each time when u  call me'baby',sayang','hunie' and all, i called u back either 'jaani' or 'weyh'..now when i started to call u with all tho 'manje words' ur ignoring it by callin me 'weyh'..i guess this is what people say what goes around comes around..IT MY FAITH!!i guess its time 4 me 2 back off...im sorie for hurting you,but now i startd to love you <3

the curse!!

i was wondering why is all my love ones leaving me and going away??now i knw,ITS BECAUSE OF THE CURSE!!!!!!i was cursed by most of the guys...i wasnt or im not a player...im a friendly person..so when i talk friendly to guys they assume that i like or love them..when they proposed 2 me i reject them..so they end up cursing me..is it my fault to be friendly???i love 2 talk,i cant stop talking..at d same time i love 2 make new friends...i guess now the curse is going all around me..karam was soo in love wimme...now hez gone too..*sigh*...i dont know what to say...im sick and tired of my fucking life..*sorie 4 that word* :(

back to blog

hellow peeps..im back 2 blog..currently m missing all my friends...it has been a while since i spoke or chat with them.. guys i miss you all..do u guys miss me?*being emo*..bhahahahahahahhaahah..being emo dosent suit me at all..i prefer being a drama queen..owkay out of the track..the friends that i miss the most are kumail,najihah,sameer,nabil,arifin,navreet,aishah,nadia and hesan...owh..wanna c how they look like..w8 lemme upload their pix :D

these are mybloved friends...i mean i have alot..but the 1's whoz close 2 me...from left top:kumail,najihah,sameer,nabil,arifin,navreet,aisha,nadia and hesan..cute right all of them...ehehehhehehe...owh...guys guess wut,sonia has added me on fb..YYEEAAAYYY..finally my doa was answered by Allah,sykur Alhamdulillah...anyways will get back 2 u guys soon kay..tc..adioz :D