Wednesday, September 29, 2010

confused soul!

which one of this belongs to me now??? *confused*
whats wrong with me?why am i feelings so messed up?should i smile?laugh?cry?what should i do to overcome this?(heart says PARVEEN BLAST ON THE MUSIC AND DANCE)..shall i do so?*thinking*
I guess this is all because of my current life style..wtf man,i don't have any freedom in my life..i feel like i don't have space to breathe..mum why is so hard for you to trust me?am i that bad?whatever..i dont care less about what you feel about me..i'm just gonna remain the same until the end because i know no matter how good i become your not gonna give me freedom and trust me..too bad i'm not gonna change who i am for any reason..* i sound so rebellious now*..who gives a shit about it!!i just wanna live the way i wanna live...give me a chance i'll prove you that my decision is right...im big enough to think what is good and bad..right and wrong..i'm no longer a kid who holds her mums hand to cross a small drain...let me go i can even cross the ocean by myself *just saying because i'm pretty bad in swimming,i can even drown in the baby pool*..the best solution for this is, my beloved mum please give me some freedom in my life,i'll prove u that i'll never misuse the freedom..*PROMISE*
Anyways its already 3.37am..i need to sleep..the bed is calling me..my bolster needs a tight from its owner..comforter need protect a sweet person from the chill...(whatever im being such a drama queen)..so good night,UMMU SALAMAH, CFS,Nilai,Negeri Sembilan and Malaysia.. toodles...mwahxxx..


Tuesday, September 28, 2010

she inspired me!!

sonia ayesha..she's the girl..

The reason im back to blog is because of her..sonia ayesha..(not my lesbian partner but she use 2 be my best friend in school)..after ages i read her blog..hella interesting..she's full of herself..that isn't a bad thing..i'm missing her so much..it has been quite long since I've even spoke to her..i just miss those moments v spent together in school..the good and bad times..the laughters..the tears...always had a wish to meet her back...(may god fulfill my wish)..she is the kind a girl i've never met before..u might be wondering"there is many social networks why cant you find her there?"..well i hav an answer for your question..she has facebook..sent her request like a year ago but still i'm in her waiting list..sob,sob,sob :(
Maybe she don't recognize me?maybe she forget me?maybe she don't need me?maybe she's shy to claim me as her friend?lots of questions are running in my god daem bloody head..a lil poem for her: There are many stars but the moon is u, there are many friends but the best is you..To forget me that’s up to u,To forget u I will never ever do.... (i know it sounds LAME..so what)..whatever it is i'm praying hard that i'll meet her soon..*guys do pray for me to* 
signing off..>>parveen shah<<  XOXO