UR THE REASON FOR MY TEARS :'(

was reading back those msgs sent by karam...i miss him soo much..now i wish i could have accepted his proposal...sameer had left me too..I HAVE NO ONE..i thought sameer would be wimme till d end..now i wish i was with karam...i miss those moments with him...the way he called me 'baby jaanu'..karam,why do u have 2 leave me now??m i that ugly??like wtf...i want u back now...KARAMJEET SINGH CHEEMA, MAIN TUMHE VAPAS CHAHAT HAI!!!!! :'(

all about him him him!!!

back to confused state...im sure of 1 thing...I LIKE HIM...but i dont know if he does or not..as usual i never expect someone 2 like me in return...they way he talks 2 me sounds like he only take me as his fren...maybe i should leave it that way...i should not expect more...im confused about aishah..i remember her words...she said parveen i only allow u 2 be frens with him..i will not allow u 2 b in a relationship with him...i tried asking her y but she never gimme any reason for it...what m i suppose to do...i am a STUBBORN ass who will not listen to anyone unless i think i should..the more she said it the more i startd to like him.. GOD..y on earth did u made us to meet..i never had any sorts of feelings at first..now slowly i started u LIKE him...well i HAVENT fall for him...it takes time,but smetimes i feel like i dont wanna lose him..another part of me is saying that im not the one for him or maybe he isnt for me....still i cant accept the fact!!leave this a side...now its about him...to me he isnt complicated,thats fosho!!he is kinda EGOIST!!he wants me 2 say everything...like wth...i cant do it..ive done it many times and ive got rejected...not gonna make that mistake anymore...all im looking now is for someone 2 love me for who i am..ofcaz i knw or i would say i assume that he will nt accept me 4 who i am...i still feel im not perfect...everyone would want a PERFECT partner...no problem in that...i think im just gonna hide my feeling...but my sister said tell it out..just say if he dont like u,u can move on..dont depend on 1 if u knw he doesnt like you..which is TRUE!!! now i gotta do is THINK CAREFULLY AND MAKE THE NEXT MOVE!!   *faint* :P